Bearclaw, I just took down the Merry Christmas sign that you made and gave me for a Christmas exchange many years ago. It's nice to take it out for the season every year!
His death really screwed with me for a long time, probably years. I understood who he was close with. One time he posted a bunch of photos that drew me in. I msg'd him and we chatted back and forth for a long time. One time he said he was going to kill himself, this was not directly to me. I msg'd someone who said they'd take care of it.
Also when tinychatting became available, i was fucking with people on there. He was the kindest gentlest soul. I miss him. I think of him often.
When I found out he died, I wondered how!?!? A lot of years would go by before I found out what happened. It screwed with me so bad. How could i talk to anyone and say some thing like, this dude on the internet died? I didn't really know him but I'm so fucked up about it
From:
redchiron
- cant' think of a witty tagline
#378 Date:
01/25/26 @ 5:36 AM
i remember driving to his parents place that was over an hour away to get him to come hang out at my apartment one night with some of my coworkers. can't remember if it was a ufc show or a rock band party night, but i'm glad i got to meet him.
From:
haze
- up the back stairs
#379 Date:
01/25/26 @ 5:47 AM
We were supposed to meet up at a restaurant in Melbourne when I was there to play at a small festival. This was also a meeting with another Fazer and his wife. He didn't show. I don't remember the reason he gave after, but it was fine, but I was bummed.
Jordan stayed on my couch in Portland for a while but it was a fucky situation with roommates and such so we didn't hang out much. He was chill and social and everyone's friend but nobody there including me got to know him on a level deeper than surface. I gave him my red leather jacket because it kind of looked like the one from fight club and suited him well. RIP
I feel like we kind of understood each other‘s heads, which is kind of scary and it made me really sad when he died
From:
redchiron
- cant' think of a witty tagline
#382 Date:
01/28/26 @ 4:20 AM
bridbran said:
Jordan stayed on my couch in Portland for a while but it was a fucky situation with roommates and such so we didn't hang out much. He was chill and social and everyone's friend but nobody there including me got to know him on a level deeper than surface. I gave him my red leather jacket because it kind of looked like the one from fight club and suited him well. RIP
I remember talking with him when he was in austrailia. He was going to give up his US citizenship and i talked to him about what that meant. I know he loved fazed and truly appreciated the community we all built. I was so fucking sad when Iheard he died.
Like also yeah he had flaws and stuff and we all do but I’ll never think of nerd bukakke the same ever again
From:
fear7trembling
- I hope you're watching when it
#385 Date:
01/29/26 @ 12:09 AM
He was a good and broken guy and I was even collaborating with him And I was also close with another friend and it took a pretty scary turn. Be friends because it's all we have but please don't wash it away.
From:
haze
- up the back stairs
#386 Date:
01/29/26 @ 12:20 AM
I miss when we had the metal thread with enough people to keep it interesting.
From:
fear7trembling
- I hope you're watching when it
#387 Date:
01/29/26 @ 12:27 AM
Who are your favorite Not Fash Black Metal Bands.
From:
chobbler
- - - - - - billy bumpkin here -
#388 Date:
01/29/26 @ 12:33 AM
is windir ok
From:
haze
- up the back stairs
#389 Date:
01/29/26 @ 12:49 AM
I don't know what that is. I don't even listen to metal. I just didn't have anything better to do.